The Doctrine of Eclipse....

The eclipse went by yesterday or today early morn.... Just raising a few queries in my mind which at the present moment lies jumbled up in a series of baffled emotions... But i guess reading these first few lines any teenager is gonna think that jus anoder addition in their bandwagon... Let them think wateva they wish to coz i give a damn...

Grief and happiness juxtapose each other throughout our existence... But can we straitjacket them...Can sumthing be referred to as sad and sumthing as good absolutely... Question??? So think....

With each passing moment, I see the eclipsing of my identity under the burden of the mask that i wear...I am baffled each time i try to figure out that whether i am really wearing a mask or is it just that this mask has become me...I wonder how i am beneath it? I wonder whether anyone cares to see me out of it... Or is it just that whatever is evident is what matters to those who are around me....? Again a question.. i need answers...

I am once again reminded of the writing of O'Henry - 'The Miracle of Lava Canyon'.... What is true.. what is material.. one that shows or the one that lies hidden away from the eyes of all that count.. I don't know...

The moon was getting engulfed in the darkness... I remained in mine own... Am I the shadow that is causing the eclipse of my ownself... or am I under the shadow of eclipse....?

The moon came out unscathed by the eclipse... but its bleeding tinge caught up with me.. Me behind the garb... When is the eclipse gonna end? I am waiting..... or perhaps not... I am merely watching....

After the fall

Yah its after a long time ... a long break.. but this is wat this ws supposed to be....rght Illusions? u shud remember that i meant to start this for the weird reason of givin sum kinda shape to the philo that i ramble all the time... :)

i think u can all see the slide show by the side of this... its exactly on such a morn that i again sit to write... a fundamental question peeks into my head... how far do we know our own selves... do we at all.... i tek myself to be one of those selfish giants who stroll their own garden for the sake of their own pathetic indulgence... bt what abt the checkered board called life.. the ups and dwns and all those that leave u affected, does it nt actually show that u cant actually be that aloof and callous that u make ur self feel... mght be.. think it over!!!

a sense of satisfaction at the moment surmounts me.... i hav survived.. nt only the some 20 years on the face of this country bt the fact that i have survived sum of my philosophies... nt to say that i have them proved wrong.. bt find certain exceptions in them...certain savings that helps u feel that the philo is nt all water tight....is nt absolute after alll [which u felt it is bt regretted]... strange tho it mght b bt the fact remains that its good to lose at times....

i see a smile... its holi... the season smiles...(the harshness of winter tho past..still lingers)... the sparrows seem to be smilin... the sun smiles after the lunar eclipse... even the moon manages a faint smile after the shadow cast hours... tanay smiles after the friends episode... krish smiles after i leave his room after buggin him fr an hour......

its time to conclude.. even i smile now... i see day after the night...